my thoughts on politics.

It's possible that no one will ever read this, and I'm okay with that. I just have to get all these thoughts out of my head. Every election I feel these things, and it's time I put them into words.

I truly dislike politics. I know a lot of Christians who would try to shame me for my apathy and uninvolvement, but as much as I attempt to muster up some enthusiasm for the candidates and issues, I cannot. People tell me it's my God-given duty to use the freedom I have in this great country and take a stand for the Lord - via the ballot, of course. But I will not.

It's not that I am politically uninformed or ignorant. I researched Amendment 26 as much as, if not a great deal more than, most people who voted today. I read articles and watched videos from both sides. I'm intelligent enough to take that information and discern what is true and what is not.

It's not that I have no opinion, either. I do, and I'll happily share it with you over a cup of coffee, in person, face to face - although I must admit, there are plenty of other things I'd rather talk to you about, like God's word, or Haiti, or downtown Jackson, or poetry. But when I speak my mind (on any issue), I want there to be no mistaking why I believe what I do. I want there to be zero room for anyone to take my words and change their intention. I want you to understand my heart.

That's the problem with politics. Politics isn't about the heart. It's about writing things down in black ink on white paper, for all the world to read and debate and dissect and amend and interpret. But it doesn't matter how many "victories" Christians in politics may have, they will never be able to change hearts.

All throughout God's word, we read about God's love of justice. We serve a just God. He has a heart full of compassion for the hopeless and helpless, for those who cannot speak or stand up for themselves - the oppressed, the widow, the orphan, the fatherless. We as Christians are called to be part of God's redemptive work by advocating on their behalf.

For this reason, it would be foolish to say that Christ-followers shouldn't be involved in politics, ever. God can certainly use Christians in the realm of politics to accomplish things for His kingdom. To me, however, it's just so delicate. We must speak truth in love, we must be careful not to let political issues divide us, we must constantly and very consciously strive to seek His will in all things and not lean on our own understanding.

Above all, we must recognize that no amount of good legislation or godly leadership can change the real issues. The real issues stem from hearts that need Jesus. Let us speak as passionately about the day of His return as we do about election day. Let us not lift up the names of candidates, but the name of our King, Jesus. In Him we trust, right?

"His dominion is an everlasting dominion that will not pass away, and his kingdom is one that will never be destroyed." - Daniel 7:14

no turning back.

From this point forward, there's no turning back.

When God speaks to us, when He gives us a vision, we have two choices: listen and obey, or ignore it and walk away.

God broke my heart for the children of Anse-a-Pitre, Haiti, and the choice for me is crystal clear. I will follow Him there.

I have hesitated to share my heart for Haiti with many people, because I was afraid of their response. I was afraid they'd tell me I'm crazy. That what I want to do is impossible. That it will never work, what with the American economy the way it is, people couldn't support something like this even if they wanted to. That I should just stay here, do something easier - because Haiti is a hot, dangerous, underdeveloped country with none of the comforts I am used to here. That I don't have the skills or experience needed to run a children's home. And on and on and on.

I cannot say I am not afraid - I am terrified. While my heart longs to see this vision become a reality, at times the doubts are overwhelming. But they all stem from insecurities I have about myself. When, oh when, will I truly learn that it is not about me? If I were trying to move to Haiti and start a children's home in my own power, with my own resources, by my own wisdom, through my own strength - well, I hope that someone would try to stop me. But I am so thankful that my limitations do not limit our God in the slightest. I will cling to His promises and trust in His grace to provide everything I need to do His work so that the people of Haiti can know His love for them!! May His name be lifted high!!

"But he said to me,“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ¹⁰ That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." - 2 Corinthians 12:9-10